P.R.I.D.E.

 

I am presently sitting and reflecting on the Pride Weekend here in Houston that just passed and I feel so much more aware of my existence as a gay black man. I'm also simultaneously thinking about this week's episode and the epiphanies I had while recording the show this week. Within these experiences I can say that I am grateful for the tribe of LGBTQIA people that I come across in this life that have a simple request to just be. People go out of their way to make us feel uncomfortable with their thoughts, language, and laws but we still continue to push through even in the most trying times. It's this type of resilience that I feel continues to move me towards my higher purpose in life and never forget the history that came before me in pioneers like Bayard Rustin, Marsha P Johnson, George Michael, Sylvester, and Marlon Riggs.

The most important issue in my head right now is that more needs to be done in regards to the history of LGBTQIA people. I'm not even going to pretend like I have all the answers however,  some type of cultural preservation needs to happen similar to the Smithsonian NMAAHC in Washington. We influence everything. I refuse to believe the notion that we are just hairdressers and nail technicians on your favorite reality program. My little bit of experience has taught me that we are some multifaceted people. I would love to one day see a collective of LGBTQIA people bond together and make progress within society. History has continuously shown us all that there is power and unity amongst people and mountains can be moved. Everyone is so divided and interested in matters pertaining to themselves and I feel like it is a crutch that is holding us back in this society. We can't get anywhere with an "I" mindset! In addition, it doesn't feel like we are fighting for the right causes at the moment because we rely too much on what history has taught us from the figures of yesteryear. We don't have any real leaders that can speak for us. We gotta wake up at some point and I have a funny feeling there's going to be something that will shake us up very soon. When that happens everybody will be prepared to fight the good fight. 

Another point of interest in my reflective thoughts is the realization that LGBTQIA people have a lot of shared experiences. Our guests Rhys and Star brought a lot of things to the light that a few listeners have not hesitated to let me know they related heavily to. We find so much solidarity in each other while also unconsciously helping each other at the same time. I am full of gratitude for that experiences like that due to the fact that it's so hard to voice issues that feel so heavy. What's ironic is that I felt bogged down at that start of recording partially because I didn't know if what I had to say would matter. In the end once I felt the energy of everyone I was able to release and share what was on my mind. Honestly we need more spaces like that which are free of judgment and full of understanding for one another. I don't mean this in the sense of tolerance either. Let me also say that there is a significant difference between tolerance and acceptance which is holding many people back from letting the love in for other people's difference.

Ultimately I feel like I've made progress with Pride this year. While I have been to Big Boy Pride a few times,  I felt that it was long overdue to attend a few pride events within my city and I do not regret it. In my head I always felt like I would see somebody that knew my parents and all hell would break loose. I suppose that goes back to the identity of being black as gay as lowkey being a profession. Either way I am appreciative for stepping out and witnessing the energy that permeated through the city last weekend. I must experience the love revolution all over again next June.